Racism is not in your intent. Your intent is immaterial in how racist your actions are. This isn’t about you BEING a racist. It’s about you DOING A THING that is racist. Your intent doesn’t change it. Your ignorance of its meaning doesn’t change it. It’s got nothing to do with you as a person and everything to do with the meaning of your action in the context of sociocultural history.
I’m sorry, I’m awful, I’ve just felt so terribly destructive all week. It’s awful. I’m horrible.
I have watched certain petals rapidly wish
in the corners of her youth; whom, fiercely shy
and gently brutal, the prettiest wrath
of blossoms dishevelling made a pale
fracas upon the accurate moon…
Across the important gardens of her body
will come toward me with its hurting sexual smell
of lilies…beyond night’s silken immense swoon
the moon is like a floating silver hell
a song of adolescent ivory.” - E.E Cummings